I don't really complain much but I have something to complain about..

I’m good to the world and people and I understand and know why people do things because of “this, this and that.”  I always know the explanation of things and situations and am real smart when it comes to human nature or why something happened.

I always ask the question, “Why?” when it comes to things.  I used to ask myself “Why me? Why? Why? Why?” because I didn’t understand why bad things happened to me.  Everyone has problems but for me, I’ve gotten through so much back when I was younger; some of the things that I went through no one can possibly understand.  It was sometimes freaky but maybe you will never know because I feel no one can ever understand.

Back when I was younger, I was treated badly because to me, I was the “black sheep” of my family. Everyone in my family treated me badly because they thought I was a burden.  My sister likes to think she was the black sheep of the family but she always had our backs.  It was just my dad and mom who have treated her badly.  My dad and mom didn’t know what to do with her while she grew up in our household because they were old-fashion and they thought that punishing us was the way of handling their children.  They didn’t really know how to discipline us and punished us for everything because I knew that my dad didn’t like his life.  He felt we were a burden to him and he was an asshole while we knew him back when we were little.  My mom was weak-willed and always wanted people to feel pity for her because she’d worked hard all of her life.  So whenever something went on she would spill to her relatives about how bad we were to make people feel sorry for her.  I don’t like my parents for that, but I don’t hold it against them for anything anymore because they have, in a way, changed, but I’m going to say something here.  Anyways, there are people out there way worse than my parents and I see that they have changed.

What I’m going to say is that my family has never supported me in anything.  They’ve always went against me about everything.  It’s been like this for a while and I got the shitty end of things when it comes to my family.  I got off of Facebook just recently because my family was on there and they complained about me posting things.  The things I post about are situations I have gone through to relate to people and I want people to understand themselves because I am relatable.   The things I go through someone has gone through... I believe.  They do not understand and never have.

 I am a very intelligent girl but my family never knew that.  They have never really understood what I am capable of doing because they think I am just there to make their lives the way it is.  I never got the chance to help take care of my family because my family never really supported me or gave me good advice about anything and I worked up to the way I am now, because of my self-disciplinary.

The reason why my family don't support me is because they don't want me to get sick again. I've gotten sick in the past many times and they just want me to relax and chill with myself.  I've done a lot in the past and caused myself to have a mental breakdown due to the stress I put on myself.  That's the reason why they don't support me.  But, I know my limitations and what I am capable of doing and I'm taking things slowly and wisely.  Yes, I can get sick again and need to be careful but also I want to be able to do certain things and hopefully my family is lenient on that and will understand me.
 

Please be supportive of your family and friends and stop saying things like “you’re a low life or bum” because I see it often when families deal with their family members.  My family had always put us down while growing up, hence my problems growing up.  In a way they still think that but it less noticeable with them when it comes to dealing with us.  Maybe my parents understood that they shouldn’t have treated their children like that and be less harsh on us now.

Anyways, that’s all I want to complain about… please love your children and your family members with all of your heart and be there for them through thick and thin.  Please support them in their passions and dreams and allow them to be whom they are, because most of all it feels good (Fanastic) to be yourself.  Why would you stop yourself to be something when truly you are special and unique in every way.