You can never get away from expectations…There's always some kind of expectation there when dealing with yourself and people. 

Many times I have emailed my friend about “expectations” and I told him that people can never get away from expectations.  It’s okay to want and ask for something especially when you are a relationship of some sort exchanging and sharing words, thoughts and things between the two of you or amongst you.  Especially in this day in age, when it comes to dating, you got to talk about what your expectations are and stick to them.  You may change your mind midway or sometime on your path of being in a relationship, but what you truly want is within you and it’s important to talk about your expectations.

I’m saying that you can’t get away from expectations because when you are being kind to someone, you do in a way want someone to be kind to another person if it isn’t being reciprocated towards you or you want to at least get a “Thank You” or an appreciation from that person.  There are people like me who don’t really expect anything from people but when I think about it, I really want people to learn something from me through this blog.  I want people to understand what I’ve written and somehow make a change in their lives somewhere down the road.  I may not want changes to occur now but I want people to think about what they are reading when it comes to my blog.

Telling people what you want and need is important because it’s what you really have it in you.  It’s what you expect from others and even from yourself.  WHAT YOU ASK, YOU SHALL RECEIVE, especially when it comes to the Law of Attraction. You have to visualize in your mind and take action in doing what you want and need, in order to make something happen in the Law of Attraction.  Your mind plays out something that you want in your life and taking steps towards that “want” and “need” eventually taking you to meet those goals in life. 

I am true believer in the Law of Attraction, because I learned about it in 2012.  I was watching the “Secret” video and after I learned about it, people of positivity kept on coming around. I haven’t met a single bad person in my life since then.  Everyone has been good in my life, and before that I had a lot of problems with people.  There were people who were negative in the years after but I brought them back to being positive because I also believe in “Good Karma,” helping people in need, and in turn receiving the Goodness in this world.

Everything is a cycle in life and it goes around and comes back to you.  If you are treating people good and helping people in need, it will in turn helped you in the end. I believe so much in this “Good Karma,” and I am a testament to this. 

Anyways, when it comes to expectations, please tell people what you expect from them, asking them what you need and want in life.  It’s okay to have expectations.  I have had conversations with men and I know men nowadays don’t like having expectations put on them when they trying to live the single life.  It’s okay to have expectations put on you, because it is them asking you what they need and want.  And when it comes to what you need and want, people should have “wants” and “needs” as well.  You can’t just deny people of those, when you want and need something for yourself.  If your wants and needs contradict or conflict with one another, please learn how to compromise and come out with a plan and a deal with people.  Dealing with people is a good skill to have because you are being a diplomat and know how to make decisions by making fair deals where people come out of a situation with something they feel good about.  Decisions are there to mature you and let you become an authoritative figure, especially when it comes to being a man.  Your expectations are there to make deals and decisions.  Please communicate what you are feeling when it comes to you, because you will be in the short end of the stick when you don’t communicate about yourself. 

I know it’s hard to talk about yourself, but please when it comes to your expectations and what you want and need, it allows you to evolve and become someone who has a major role in life.

It’s a fact in life when you are growing up and maturing, because it a process of learning to do things.  Everything is about learning and when you are a single person with thoughts, feelings, wants, and needs you must communicate about those things to get what you deserve in life.

What do you ask for?  Try to be positive and try to visualize what you want and need.  The universe will answer your prayers and be proactive in speaking about yourself.

Anyways…that’s what I know about expectations… expectations teach you about what you can do for yourself when it comes to dealing with people.  When you are always around people you have to think about expectations, and when it comes to yourself, you must have goals and expectations for yourself, in order to have passion(s) in life and make it to those passions and dreams.

I have many times talked about not wanting or needing anything from my "so-called" friend, but when I really think about my expectations, I realize that I want and need certain things from him. I want him to learn from me and evolve to someone better, that's why I started the whole email thing with him from the beginning, to help him with his life.  I'm here writing because I have expectations of the world. 

The thing with expectations is that you need to think hard about what you want and need from yourself and people.  When you are thinking long and hard about these things, you will know that you will have expectations whether you want to or not.

That mask that hides our insecurities only saves us in the meantime, but your insecurities are there to make you human and to connect with others because they are just like you.

Back when I was in High School, I was pretty popular with everyone and I hid behind my smiles.  Everyone who knows me, knows I have a good smile.  Can’t you tell by my picture?  Anyways, every day I went to school smiling and everyone thought that I had it good.  I was pretty lonely back in High School.  I saw people going through things themselves, and I felt that I needed to reach out to people. I had always felt good about people and wanted to help.  I saw people who were lonely.  I saw people who didn’t like their lives.  I saw people who were struggling in school with their peers and with their school life. I saw people becoming something they weren’t and living up to people’s expectations, which I was doing myself as well.  I saw people, mostly. I have always been like this since I was a little kid. I wanted to help people get to a better place, even though I didn’t have it good when I was younger. I knew that I was different but also, I knew I wasn’t different because I felt what these people I saw went through.  I gave up all of the glory of being popular in Senior Year and ditched everyone who was toxic to me.  I do regret this because these people become major players in my life later on after High School.  I couldn’t go on being that pretty 15 or 16 year old kid that seems to have everything, so I gave it all up.  I ended up letting myself go in Senior Year, and focused on school. I made it to “distinction” or straight A’s in Senior year and after High School I moved back to California. Keep in mind I was living in Massachusetts for four years during High School. 

Anyways, that mask that I put on for three years, that I was hiding behind really made people think I had it good.  At home I had problems with my sisters and my dad, mostly.  My dad was not kind at all and he didn’t understand us.  I’m not going to say what kind of father he was because people would assume he’s still like that, but he stopped doing what he did back when we were younger.  Let’s just say, he was not loving his life and put it out on us. 

I believe that mask that we hide behind, just shows that people are living their lives day by day going through things that we don’t know anything about, until you notice something or they tell you something about their lives.  That mask is a deception of whom we are.  It just saves us from letting people in and keeps those people who are bad out.  Anyways, I don’t necessarily think everyone is bad, maybe these bad people are battling within themselves as well, because they knew life differently. Everyone is going through something themselves, really when you get to know their stories.  The enemy is only there to look within yourself and feel threatened and indifferent towards them.  But if you knew your enemy and why they are the way they are, you would understand that things within our lives happened to make us a certain way.  We are a certain way to due to the causes and effects of life, which I have briefly talked about in my previous posts about the Law of Cause and Effect.  Our lives is a timeline of situations that happened that cause us to behave or treat others the way we do.  If you know that your enemy is like this, you would know that your life is reflected off of others and you go within the self to look at your ego.  Your ego is reflected off of people because most of all your ego comes out in the way you present yourself.  The self is there to hiding behind the mask, and sometimes you feel things about yourself that no one really knows or you sometimes confused about whom you are.  I was, once confused about everything and I was conflicted with myself in my younger years.  I was stuck because people did things to me that made freeze whenever something horrible happens to me.  I didn’t know how to scream when it happened, and sometimes I’m afraid that this thing will happen again, but because I’ve been through it all, I am able to get pass situations since I was able to get through the sufferings or situations that made me feel weak.  There’s people out there who go through similar situations and sometimes people open up to you because they want to feel human.  I never fantasized about being god because I love being human.  Those feelings of insecurities make me perfect and makes everyone perfect because we are able to connect and have compassion for people or for things or animals that remind us of living.    

I am reminded every day of living and I live with compassion for everything, because if I am to say that our enemies go through things and battle within themselves as well, I am having compassion for everything.  Buddha said that in order to understand everything, you must forgive everything, meaning you must have compassion even for your enemies. 

Anyways, please break through the mask and find people who understand your sufferings, so your true self can shine through.  You don’t necessarily need to tell everyone everything, but if you can, tell someone who understands and is willing to listen.  Don’t be afraid of what may happened once you’ve told people, because once you are faced with your problems for reals, you will finally have faced the world and was brave for doing so.  It’s good to be brave sometimes and open up to certain people because you may go pass your insecurities and let go.  Life is about going through situations that make you uncomfortable, dealing with it, moving on and letting go.  The situations are uncomfortable for a reason because you can always learn from it.  You don’t really learn when you are in your comfort zone.  These situations test your true character and make you human.  Even when you have failed and hit rock bottom as many times as you could, you always will find something within yourself one day however long it takes to get you back on your feet.  Sometimes it’s unpredictable and you don’t know when that spark comes, but have faith and hope because when do you have faith and hope is when you have hit rock bottom. You could even have faith and hope when you’re just living life happily but most of all when you are learning the lessons of life, when you are going through a lot is when that big o’ faith and hope comes through and then you are able to work through it and shine. 

I am shining right now, even though it sounds corny.  I have lived a beautiful life, going through the ebbs and flows of life, and now am telling you what you need to hear to get that spark going and get back on your feet.  If you don’t know when things will change or when you will have that spark to move on, just hope that something up there is listening and that there are people who understand you.  Even if you don’t believe in god, then believe that you are a living being that deserves to have a life of happiness.  Everyone deserves to be happy, and I mean it, I was once unhappy with my life, but am now living the life I am living. I am pretty happy even though I have issues with my life.  I believe that life is supposed to be imperfect for a reason for you to understand that we are not perfect like God. 

Anyways, I’m saying this with all of my heart because I used to be there where you are now.  I am doing this to help people, because I understand what you are going through.  What you’re going through, others may go through as well.  We are all the same and in a way we are unique because our differences are there to compromise or look pass since our differences show that we are the same.  We have differences because they are relatable due to these differences.  You have differences. I have differences.  We must accept whom we are according to what makes us different.  We accept because we know other way to go about life.  Acceptance is key here.  You are unique because that uniqueness is in everyone. You may feel like no one understands, so I am here telling you that I have felt different most of my life, but because I’ve heard stories from people and can relate to people, I assure you that the world understands.   

I hope you get pass your insecurities and face your problems head on.  If that one person doesn’t understand, someone else will understand.  Just give yourself a chance or chances to get through situations, let yourself be heard and a chance or chances to be happy.   

Everyone deserves to be happy and you will, too, one day.

Anyways, sometimes I put that mask on when I'm dealing with people, because I don't want people to know things about me, but let me tell you that I take that mask off sometimes and tell people my story and it feels good to know that people do understand when you give people a chance to understand you.  

Today, I found out that people go through similar situations as me and it feels good to know that being human is beautiful because we all go similar situations.  

I smile now with a real smile because I have lived my life and do not regret anything even though certain things from the past were really bad.  I really have a beautiful smile and everyone has a beautiful smile especially when they living the life they want to live. I want to live this life just the way i want to, so please shine through that mask and smile like you deserve to.

I have questions about the universe and God... I am always asking questions because when I am learning I am evolving so I will ask questions.

Why is there opposition to everything? Balance..Balance...Balance..

I don’t know if God will have someone succeed to him, because if I have been God for a while, I may even feel like giving my seat to someone who deserves it because I feel everything evolves.  You can say that you didn’t evolve throughout the years from a fetus to an eldering man or woman when you say that there is no such thing as evolution.  I see evolution in everything.  Maybe the Bible is wrong or it has been misinterpreted because when words are written or spoken there are overlaps, there are contradictions and there are things that are left unsaid.  This whole universe cannot be said in a book.  There’s so much in this universe to be saying that there are only rules that is the bible.  That’s why there are preachers who preach the words or interrupt the words from the Bible so people can worship God or not even that he may be thinking he is preaching about the bible or about God.  I don’t know whom God is to be saying that I understand God, because maybe people don’t understand God.  But if I was sitting up there in Heaven for millions or billions of years, I do know that I will need to something or someone to succeed me because if something is going on a path to something and that there’s always something to learn, that God may even have a message saying he knows something that he didn’t know before. Does God know everything? Is the Universe God’s soul mate.  I could wrong that God is alone in his seat and God doesn’t have a soul mate. If you’re high up there and you have people worshiping you, won’t you feel lonely being at the top? I’ve been put up on a pedestal all of my life, and I can say that it is very lonely being up there. Why wouldn’t God feel lonely?  He has angels and disciples with him in heaven and people spreading his words or messages, but I wouldn’t want to be God because I feel that I would be lonely.  But I would not feel lonely if I am to learn about the universe and learning is something to live by everyday, every moment in life because it is passion to learn. Do you think God also learns about the universe as well, that he watching us from heaven and learning about us.  Why would anyone have observation of us, when they have no interest or no compassion, it means that he is watching us because he is curious and learning.   Does he know what will happen because it paved our destiny and knows that we are on a way to something? I don’t know, I just have questions.  If God and his disciples are making decisions about the world, then why is he making a decision when everything is set in stone? He is going to turn our destiny around in an instance because it believes it will be end of times when he knows and decides it for us. If the world is to expand and knowledge is infinite, then we are evolving.  We are always learning within ourselves and within the universe and even beyond the universe, because we do not really know whom God is. Even after you studied the Bible do you know whom God is? I don’t know the Bible much to saying anything, but anyways, I have inklings about the world and I am preaching about what I know, because to me, I see how the world works.  I won’t deny anyone or anything, because I keep everything into consideration.

Maybe God is evolution, will you even rethink that too as well, if there’s people who believe in evolution.  Evolution is in the seasons, it’s in the weather system, it’s in the core of our earth, it’s in the lands, it’s in the way we communicate with technology, it’s with what we know, and everything to do with history, math, art, design, technology, science, and etc.  There is a beginning and ending, there is a middle and there is a continous flow of things going on where things overlap and contradict each other.  Not mention the universal laws of the universe that overlap or connect to each other.  There are contradictions because we are faced with our opposites since we must understand our entire selves.

Why would you deny things because maybe you misinterpreted the Bible.  I may even go back on my words about the Big Bang Theory because maybe another genius or great scientist will shoot down the theory of physics.  Facts are not in concrete and we are always learning through and around ourselves to be stuck thinking a certain way.  Please be open-minded when you are dealing with life.  Please don’t be offended because of my words, because I am actually evolving as I write, because I don’t know everything and I will not conclude my thoughts and feelings about things because I know I don’t know everything.   I am not a Know-it-all and I am not self-righteous, because I know that I will always learn and evolve through life.  I am going to learn from everything even though I say that I am very wise, but I am confident in what I say and know because I practice what I preach and am definite that what I know needs to heard because maybe other people like me don’t have a voice.  I am not the only one with these theories.  There are people out there who think and have feelings like me, and I do not want to be “THE ONE” whom everyone goes to about the world. I am only allowing you to think with your own mind and I have valid reasons to make you think outside of yourself. 

Why we have superiority in this world is because there are levels within our lives that let us progress and evolve.  You may be at the bottom once but you are beneath someone or something greater because there are levels above you and below you.  You will never be at the top until you succeed God.  God is above everything and he knows everything or is evolving just like us because if he is to speak through us, he must speak to us in our language(s) that is why we have the Bible.  When I speak or write, I evolve because I am always learning.  There is superiority in this world because the bottom held you up.  That is why people worship or follow others because we have leaders of this world. However, if I were a leader I would not expect people to worship me because who am I to have superiority when I once was at the bottom.  You must pull people up and let them have seat in your mind, soul and heart.  What I know about life I am sharing with people because I want people to be in my place. I want others to evolve like how I have. I want others to love and care for others. I want others to have what I have, because I know sharing and spreading the love is about humanity and about the world, and if I were to have a seat in God’s place, that I would have the message of love and compassion.  You can’t have compassion when you don’t understand something, so I ask do you understand God? I do not know the Bible so I’m not going to say I understand the Bible but I’m a grown ass woman who has gone through life through thick and thin and I am intelligent enough to ask and challenge what’s in front of me because humans are a curious species.  My curiosity may not help me in the end, but I always have questions about the world because my mind wonders and is allowed to.  There is no boundary to understanding life and wanting or having desires as long as it is not harmful.   There will be opposition in everything because life is about balance. 

You balance your life every day, thriving or even surviving in this lifetime.  There is opposition because everything has a story and if you are understand Good you must not ignore the Bad.  There is Good and Bad in everything.  That’s why there is opposition to God and why he was cast down to Eternal Hell because that story showed that you should not oppose God.  But the Devil, Satan cannot be denied because when you are speaking of God, you are keeping mind of the Evil in this world.  You can’t understand Good without Evil.  That’s why we have the Ying and Yang and the law of Polarity.  If there is no evil or bad, when you have no understanding of Good…so you must understand the balance, even the gray areas, the middle parts because there is the unknown, where you don’t know anything about and have no clue about. Only God knows and if God is everything, then these things like Gays, other religions, etc. can’t be denied.  Why do we have these people and things in life then?  You can’t deny it, because you are turning your nose away from things that are obvious and being small-minded when you don’t ask or face the reality of life.  If you don’t know, then you can’t deny it because you don’t know and don’t understand.  Please if you don’t know, please understand others and the things in life because you are blocking out things that may help you understand everything.  Don’t you want to understand?

Anyways, what is reality? It’s our perception of life.  I ask this all the time.  Is all of this an illusion that isn’t really happening or that we think we are living or aren’t really living but on a level of a dimension.  Whatever dimension we are in, I ask the universe what is this and what is that?  I am not going to be oblivious and turn the other cheek and deny what I saw or know.  If you believe God, would you ask others to deny what they believe in when really what you know or believe may not be the truth as well?

Our curiosity may lead to bite the apple in Eden’s garden, but can’t you tell that we all have inkling of knowing something and that passion of learning always and evolving every day, that evolution is there to help me improve ourselves.  Heck, I took Geometry in High School in 10^th grade, but there are middle school students who are taking Geometry right now.  WE are all evolving through life, and you can’t deny evolution, because maybe God is evolution.  WE may even destroy ourselves because we know too much, but what is the threshold where no man can go?

We are amazing with what and where we have taken ourselves, but there are limits to what we know, and this is why I will always have the burning question of if there is a god, but I cannot conclude.  I may not conclude until I die and maybe am denied access to heaven because I didn’t fully believe in God.  I may never know, but I am always going to ask questions about things because I may have valid reasons for being whom I am, since what and whom I am is to ask the universe what is, where is, why is this, this and that?  The most important question of all is the question “Why?”  Then I ask where am I in the place of knowing and then what am I do with what I may know. 

Anyways…I’m just thinking.. that’s all. I know that there’s balance to everything, because in everything there is good and bad.  You really want to know why I say that?  Because throughout life I noticed those two things in everything…  If you are really going to think you are going to weigh the pros and cons and if something is entirely bad, means the good out of it is that you do not do it again.  And if everything is good, means that it may be bad to not take it into consideration.  So there’s balance to everything.

Okay I’ll leave you with this and please tune in again whenever I have something to write about.

What it means to be human is that you are just like everyone else, suffering and battling within yourself. Have love and compassion for others...

When I see an infomercial on sending or writing a check to feed the unfortunate, I have tears in my eyes and I struggle within myself, knowing that I have a fortunate life compared to people in third world countries.  I have little to complain because I feel my life is much better here in the United State than it is in other countries.  Some people may say that “Fuck them, we need to take care of our own nation than worry about others in other countries.”  What happens there, happens here as well, because when Syrians flee from their country and come in desperation they are asking for help in dire need.  Can you imagination wanting a safe haven for your family when your country is being bombed?  Your family may be wiped out in a single destructive bomb that lands on top of you and blows up, trying to survive a war within your country.  Please have compassion because we may not have the same opportunities like we have had in the past several decades of having to be away from war.  Bombs may fly here one day if we keep isolating ourselves.  It’s good karma to help others in need despite where they are on this planet. I believe in good karma because my life has been good the past few years, helping and reaching out to people who need my compassion and help.  My life tells a story, the truth about good karma.  I have it easy now but I don’t know if this will last because whenever the universe wants to teach me a lesson about life, the universe will have something in store for me so I may always learn from life.

Anyways, I watched Holocaust survivors struggle in the cold.  Their homes have no warmth and the buckets of clean water within their homes are iced up.  This is what they do, they bargain with life each and every day to see if they can survive another day. It’s so cold they have no or little wood to burn in their furnace because they have no one to help them get the wood so they bargain with life each day until the wood runs out.  They don’t have food in their stomachs so they bargain with life to spare one more day of having some food in their stomachs.  They feel so blessed to have a bowl of baked beans and they have to bargain with life to have another like it the next day. 

Can you imagine your life bargaining with God to see if you have another day of life here on earth?  People who don’t have compassion are filled with malice because they don’t know what the struggle does to you, teaching you not to take life for granted and seeing someone going through something themselves they would have some compassion.  I have struggled many times in my life and when I see someone struggle day by day, I have compassion. I have tears in my eyes when I see someone struggle because it’s the pain and suffering they feel within themselves. It hurts to feel pain and suffering.  No one wants to struggle but I am fortunate to know how pain and suffering is because I would have these tears of compassion for people. 

It’s beautiful to have that connection with people because you know the struggle and understand one another.  I will always try to help someone or reach out to people and be the first person to do that because I have had the fortune to be helped when I really needed it.  At the time I didn’t think I needed the help, but really I was battling within myself and I was screaming so at the end, I changed my life around.

Being human is beautiful because of the tragic life we may lead.  Any moment within my life may end, and God looks at that and goes, “You are beautiful…”  Life is precious because tragedy can come anytime, teaching others about the shortness of life.  Sometimes people are so bitter at living a life, they want to end it, but they just don’t have someone to teach them about the values of living a meaningful life.  It’s meaningful when there are people within it, telling you that life is too important to waste or take for granted.  Life can drag on but if you reach out to others, strangers you may see that your life is precious just by understanding that others want your simple life.  Others may have so much tragedy in their lives that your quiet life is something they may want, because it’s simple in what they need.  All they need is a roof over their head, food in their stomachs, legs to walk on, hands to feed themselves, a mouth to eat, love and support within their communities and the ability to feel emotions and have conversations on what bothers them.

Homeless people are surviving every day.  They are on the brink of survival and don’t know if they will have another day just like the Holocaust survivors living in their country with the cold barging into their homes and not having anyone to feed them, not knowing if they will survive another day.

So please reach out to the unfortunate despite where they are on this planet.  Please if you have something to spare, please spare with your good heart and open up to another human being.  They will be blessed with your kindness.

Every day when I volunteer, I get homeless people saying “Bless you for your kindness in volunteering” and I smile everyday knowing I’ve done something kind.  I don’t know if I believe in a religion, but we all have some kind of faith or hope when it comes to living life despite what you believe in or what not.  WE are all the same in some ways, because we are battling within ourselves, whether it’s something minor like getting hungry or getting cold.  We suffer every day. 

Please if you have compassion, reach out to people or something in need.  The world needs people like you to make a difference.  That difference in sending a check to the organization may help and it just adds another day of sunshine within your life or will forever make your life more amazing because you made in difference in your heart, mind and soul.

When it comes to your heart, mind and soul, it needs comforting, something worthwhile that has meaning and makes an everlasting connection that makes you think about others and have love and compassion for your fellow citizens of your country or the world.  Everyone is apart of you and you are apart of this world.  We make up this world, and this universe, please do not ignore what’s going on this world and open your heart, mind and soul by reaching out.  

Please stop to smell the roses to have meaning in your life...

You know when I talk about something usually whatever I'm talking about is not a problem, it's just that I want to have a conversation. It's not me having issues with it still. I probably got over it but just want to converse.

People generally mistake me for that and I feel people don't really talk that much anymore so there's a lack of communication going on in this world. People are stuck on their phones, texting or being impersonal about things that they don't stop to actually have an in person conversation or to smell the roses.

Look around you there's more to life than just your job or busy life. Stop and inhale the air and exhale out again and breath in again to relax. There's a lot of beauty going on around you you just have to appreciate it…

Yeah so I get this a lot from people not really understanding that I just want to converse about life and the meaning of life. Sometimes I will talk to just to get people to relate to me. It feels good to know someone is just like me or understands me.

I know I can relate to people but people have a hard time relating to me because I tend too think about the rights and wrongs of society. I'm only trying to make people think beyond themselves but not to change anyone… I just want people to think about things so they look at their life and go “Gee… I didn't realize that…”

I do not have the right to tell someone to change but at least have them think about things and have it in the back of their minds so they will understand and maybe change when they want to. I understand that I cannot tell a man what to do because he will only change when he wants to.. I'm just giving valid reasons to the things I talk about.

So when I talk to you or anyone, I'm not really stuck on the situation I just want to converse for the sake of conversing.

There's many things I want to talk about and I rather have an one on one conversation than being impersonal. I may be a pain in the butt about wanting to talk but it's me being human and wanting that connection.

I love to converse and I love people so mostly I have the time to get personal with people because that connection when connecting to people is beautiful.

Society has made it hard to connect on a personal level and I'm not like that. I believe that there's meaning to having human contact. We should stop ignoring things or people because without communication we lack understanding and compassion.

You can have compassion without communication but mostly if you're not a compassionate person the compassion usually comes when you are being personable and connecting with people.

Please take moments in your busy schedule and look around you to see how beautiful it is to be surrounded by life, because you deserve to have those moments that have meaning within your life.

If you don't have that meaning in life please practice having that in your life.

Drama has no place at work and nonverbal communication is indeed communication...

I actually saw my sibling’s post about keeping quiet at work and I think there was drama at work. I used to work with my first ex and it was soooo drama at work that I advise to not have business relations with lovers and family. This guy was so inappropriate when I worked with him but I'm not going to say much because if I'm saying this means you will have an idea what inappropriateness is. You see it around a lot,  people turning towards bigotry.  Anyways I know my sibling because I've dealt with her. There is a sassiness about her and she gets straightforward with people.

I'm straightforward with her but we clash every time. What makes her think that she can be straightforward when others can't be with her? There is a self-righteousness and self-entitlement going on with her. Actually you have no clue who this person is and I won't point her out.

I am not entitled to being an asshole or a bitch, I rather be a nice person which I am when it comes to people but there is a healthy balance of understanding people and being ‘real’ because there is a lot of bullshit going around where people are a certain way.

Anyways if she is keeping quiet I hope she doesn't roll her eyes or looks at someone disgustingly because all of that is nonverbal communication since it's still indeed communication. I'm not sure what happened at work because she has disappeared from my life.

I'm telling you that please don't give someone the evil eye or look at someone in a disgustingly way because something like that will make someone feel something on the inside. Communication isn't just words and if your nonverbal cues are mistaken please practice communicating through nonverbal and verbal communication. There's always going to be someone thinking something because they have mistaken you but where you can have a chance to explain yourself please never stop explaining yourself.

Anyways people have started with me many times in the past and there's always misunderstandings and emotions running  high. When you have had a chance to calm down and really think things through, please give yourself a chance to explain yourself because two people not getting along is a sad thing. I don't like it when I see people fight or see people from  my life disappear because I didn't understand them.

Please be courteous to people and speak to people with respect and dignity.  The drama stays outside of the work place and please talk to people at home about your problems instead of putting your anger out at people at work.

Nonverbal language is just as offensive as someone speaking to someone negativity, it's just that the words aren't spoken. When someone rolls their eyes at you or gives you that disgustingly look, don't you feel mad or offended? My other sibling does this to me but I know she's playing around.

Anyways if you are going to keep quiet at work please keep to yourself and stay out of the drama.

Drama has no place at work.

Please don't fool a fool because one day you'll be a fool...

You know what I would not do when it comes to love is when I give some guy a chance who is talking to other girls at the same time. You know to me dealing with one guy is a lot and you men who are exclusive with your women, isn't it a lot of work trying to make something, a relationship work? Why would I give a guy like that a chance when I focus all on one guy. It might not be smart to do that but what's better being smart in a fucked up dating world and knowing how to jungle all them guys or girls or being true to whom you are by just choosing a guy or girl and focusing on him or her by getting with her without distractions? Maybe I'm not smart and not giving into the ways of how the dating world is because to me I'm doing myself a favor by sticking to what and whom I am when it comes to dating, that means that I am going to wait out and meet someone who has the same values as me. That's what I call ‘smart.’ Why would I be desperate and let someone into my life while he goes and talks to other girls. It doesn't have any thing to do with my pride and ego because I have put myself into vulnerable situations that made me look like a fool. But first of all you have to be a fool or be a  fool many times to be where you're at. You have to place yourself in a vulnerable situation to make a definite change.. and not just that you are building tolerance when it comes to vulnerable situations.

Please don't fool the fool because you may be in the situation of being a fool someday. What makes you think that you are invincible to everything. I will not fool anyone just to be sneaky and manipulative just because I think I can fuck with people. I have no right to manipulate  or fool anyone. Please if you think you're so smart please let someone mindfuck you and see who comes out being and acting crazy. I think mindfucking is evil and that being so the same with reverse psychology. I have no right to mindfuck anyone because it's all pride and ego when you think you can go into someone's mind and toy with their feelings and mind. What I know in this life is that there's always going to be someone smarter or prettier. Since I know this and a guy sticks with me even though someone else better comes into his life  is him being loyal and not being fickle. Buddy… if you're looking for someone better all the time you will never be happy and not just that what if you got kicked to the curve when someone better comes along in your girlfriend’s or boyfriend’s life? So your mentality towards being elusive when it's comes to dating may be weird. How would you feel if your girl or guy kicks you to the curve once she’ve or he’ve  found someone better? Don't lie… you would be sad and it would beat down your pride and ego.

Anyways I choose  one guy at the beginning and make sure I am the only one he's talking to and if he's not right I move on. The other guys who didn't have a chance I will not run to them and ask for a redo… because I made a choice and not just that… I am confident that another guy will show up and if not… there's no biggie because I feel complete to even care to be in another relationship. I'm not desperate to date and put myself in an open relationship to later be kicked to the curve. I know what I want and this guy better know what he wants and sticks to his decisions. I know how to stick to my decisions and not even feel like a fool for choosing someone. If things don't work out it means it's not meant to be.

Anyways the dating world these days is fucked up. You don't think? You will need to look around you because there's not a lot of old school loving going around. I am old fashion with a flair of sassiness and is filled with passion.

I'm asking this universe to find someone right for me… who will stick with me through thick and thin. I'm asking the universe to find someone who has the same values as me. Well in this world there will only to be one or two people for each person. That's why you went through so many frogs and haven't met the one. If that the one leaves there will be another the one. You will probably only have two the ones in this lifetime and if you've found her then the universe has answered your prayers. You are one lucky guy or girl. Since I know this I will be careful and I will be patient. The universe knows but once you've had the chance please don't be a fool and make it go away but you're a fool because you allowed yourself to experience something. You're only a fool because it's an opportunity to look into yourself and have a chance to feel and know something about yourself.

Don't you think I make a lot of sense?

Please don't fool a fool. You will be the fool one day if the universe is watching. The universe is always watching and it will teach you a lesson about life every time. It's coming from a very wise person right here.

Please think about what you're doing when it comes to relationships and please don't sell yourself short just to keep someone in your life. Stick with what you want in life and be patient. The right one will come along.

My issues with myself makes me human and it's beautiful to be human

Sometimes I feel inadequate…like not myself. I'm generally a positive person but sometimes I would have negative thoughts as if my life is going no where. I wished that my passions were always consistent as I keep pushing through life but then I would feel inadequate. It's like this sometimes when I'm about to have anxiety. It's been a problem since beginning of 2016. Last year was an okay year where I was busy but my head was filled with thoughts springing through every corner of my head. I do have the tendency to think too much but I'm going to say that I am mostly good about everything. Right now I'm just blogging and doing my fashion stuff on Instagram and it has kept me somewhat busy. Last year was an even more busier year as I went full time in school and towards the end of the year I finished school and worked for a little while.

My passions lie mostly in people. I do most of everything because of people. Sometimes when I'm home and have no one to talk to, I get bored and just sit in my room , staring at the walls. In a way, I am lonely but in  a way I am not. Maybe I should start looking for companionships online who will be readily available for me, whom I can talk to whenever. My family doesn't really have time to communicate with me so sometimes when I have a chance I would talk for long periods. There is a lack of good communication going on in my family and I am probably the only one here who wants to communicate. My mom and dad talk a lot like me but they are not fluent in English. I have a language barrier when it comes to communicating to my parents.

Anyways I wish I didn't feel inadequate sometimes because it's my insecurities coming out of me. Almost everyone has insecurities but me I gotten away from feeling very insecure from a while back. Right now the why I am now is good compared to how it used to be. This is why I get up close and personal here because I do not feel insecure mostly.if I am confident to whom I am nothing will push me down and I will not once again fall off my feet. I have hit rock bottom many times and each time I get confident with myself when it comes to getting back to where I need to be.

I will find my way and I will once again feel that passion pushing and forcing its way through life. I do want everyone to find happiness and their passions in life because I know… I used to be dispassionate about life. I really want to be there for everyone and I want to see more love and happiness in this world. I deserve happiness as much as everyone because everyone including me is important to this world. Without you I wouldn't have this life. Without me you wouldn't be sitting there reading my blog.

Anyways I do want to get pass my anxieties and move on. My life keeps having pauses and stops and I need to keep going. I must be strong like I've been throughout my life so I can feel the warmth of life of the sunshine that wants to break through the clouds when it gets rough.

Yes… life is supposed to be beautiful. But these issues make me human. It's beautiful to be human.

Have love and compassion for your enemies...

Be Kind to your Enemies...

You know I probably don't have many enemies and to really think about it, I probably don't have any.  I have not really kept any of my enemies close but if I were to have enemies I would probably preach and keep preaching until it gets through to my enemies.

I really feel that people should be kind and love their enemies because most of all, these enemies probably don't know what love is and is indifferent to you, because they don't understand it, but if you were to show them kindness and love, they will probably not retaliate and will treat you with respect.

I feel that people who are indifferent to you are probably battling within themselves and don't really understand your life, that's why they are indifferent to you.  Everyone is battling within themselves and they only knew life differently because they had other people who were bad influencing them to be a certain way.  Even though I never had any bad influences in my life, I really think my enemies took a wrong turn because they had these bad people in their lives.

We should really show our enemies what love is and do not fight fire with fire, because when you fight fire with fire, you are repeating the cycle of hatred and vengeance.  It's not good to fight fire with fire because you don't win anything out of it.  You fight evil with good and fight fire with simmering down the fire with water.  Water is versatile and it gives life to things so we should think like water.  Even though water can be destructive but if you can create life with water than water is amazing.

I really feel that we should love our enemies, because maybe they don't know your life like how it should be for them and what is good and bad?

Depends on which side you are on.  We may be considered evil to them because we go against what they believe but if you are to carefully approach your enemies and really speak their language to get to know what they want you can be a diplomat.  If you are to be diplomatic, every side gets something out of something so it means we must compromise.

Your enemies may not know life like you do, but they also have wants, needs and desires, even though their desires may be harmful to you but you preach and keep on preaching about doing good and battling evil with good by reaching out kindly to your enemies.

The bible talks about this a lot about having compassion for people, because you don't know why they ended up a certain way.  Everyone has a story and your enemies have stories of why they are the way they are now, battling within themselves.  You have to start to understand their stories and when it comes to the LAW of Cause and Effect, you must understand that there are things that caused them to be a certain way which affected them and their wrongdoings affected people, while causing harmful situations in other people's lives.  So you must understand your enemies and speak their language and be diplomatic and in the end you compromise with yourself and with them.

anyways,  I would keep preaching and preaching and practice what I am preaching to share this good knowledge with the world and so it gets through to your enemies.  They will look at your philosophy and maybe say to themselves that "Yes you are right..."

Anyways, please have compassion for people and love people despite who and what they are.  Once you show love and compassion for people, they will respect you and love you back.  It's tough having people love you back especially when you're dealing with people but if you can get people to love you back, it is amazing...

Ruffles and Stripes and a pop of color.  We will probably see more ruffles and stripes sweaters this coming Fall.  I actually have three colors of this sweater and it's really cute on.  There will be more colors coming with stripes and ruffles.

What is love? Happy Valentine's...

You know what love is?  To me… love is when you compromise, it’s when you fight for long hours and make up after yelling and screaming at each other but in the end you will not leave this person so you compromise about what’s in your heart.  Love is also when you understand each other and want to talk about your deepest desires, wants and needs.  Love is not fleeting.  That is just the beginning or start of a relationship.  You cannot expect your love life to be weak in the knees constantly because what kind of love would that be? That would be a life where you’re in a way drunk all of the time.  I want to be grounded and I want to run to someone after we’ve fought and give them a big hug and kiss on the lips.  I do not want to meet my soulmate or twin flame. I just want someone who will be there for me through thick and thin who will raise my kids up with me. I want someone who makes me happy while sometimes it being sad at times because if we are not able to compromise, all he does is stick with me because we are a couple.  I do not always want that feeling that is fleeting because I feel I won’t be grounded if it was like that. I will constantly feed off of that need to be on cloud 9.  This lover of mines will constantly have to drag me or carry me if I am always weak in the knees.  So I do not want that kind of love.  I want meaningful love that lasts for a while.

Meaningful love is all I want.  

I never really liked the movie "Notebook" and "A Walk to Remember."  Hollywood always made romance like that unattainable.  Usually romance is chaotic and it's a love and hate relationship.  I've never been in a relationship that was so great as the couple like in the "Notebook," but I don't wish for that kind of relationship.  The kind of relationship I want is real and raw, that sometimes we would get into long tough fights and then we would stop talking to one another, then think about why we're not thinking that and come back to each other to make up and do this over and over again.  I have always liked the movie "Blue Valentine" and "Eternal Sunshine" because it shows real couples fighting and separating at times and loving one another hard as though nothing could separate them unless towards the end they separate, but that is what I call "real."  Real relationships see your vulnerable side with embarassing moments or with moments that may indicate that you may leave but you two end up coming back to one another.

I don't want a perfect romance like in the movies. I want something "real."

I always tell people that I don't plan on meeting my soulmate or twin flame because I don't need to.  All I want to be with is someone who is right and who will stick with me through thick and thin.  That's the kind of relationship I want.  I don't seriously don't want to be on cloud 9 all of the time because what kind of relationship would that be, when I'm not grounded.

If you feeling that your current relationship is not fleeting, please rethink how you feel about the relationship. You are probably doing good.  Most of everyone wants to be on cloud 9 all of the time, but please rethink about what you want, because that expectation is not really realistic.

Anyways, I hope you all have a good Valentine's.  Even if some of you may not have anything but please indulge in yourself and buy yourself something nice.  You don't always need a man or a woman to sweep you off your feet today.  

Happy Valentine's...

J. Crew ensemble except for the purse and shoes.  Shoes are made by Clarks and the purse I bought from a off-price discount retail store.  It's a pop of color and I wanted to go into Spring with a little bang so I thought this ensemble would look nice for sunny days.  It's really nice on and does not look too much.  Anyways I thought it would be nice to add a yellow to the mix because it's going to be Spring!!!

This yellow and blue dress looks real nice on when the sun is coming down and would be a nice evening dress when going out in the summer.  I paired it with hoop earrings and clarks sandals.  You know this dress tucked all of my lumps on my body in and it looked really tailored and  neat on the body.  I would wear this with a pony tail if I had long hair.

I don't really complain much but I have something to complain about..

I’m good to the world and people and I understand and know why people do things because of “this, this and that.”  I always know the explanation of things and situations and am real smart when it comes to human nature or why something happened.

I always ask the question, “Why?” when it comes to things.  I used to ask myself “Why me? Why? Why? Why?” because I didn’t understand why bad things happened to me.  Everyone has problems but for me, I’ve gotten through so much back when I was younger; some of the things that I went through no one can possibly understand.  It was sometimes freaky but maybe you will never know because I feel no one can ever understand.

Back when I was younger, I was treated badly because to me, I was the “black sheep” of my family. Everyone in my family treated me badly because they thought I was a burden.  My sister likes to think she was the black sheep of the family but she always had our backs.  It was just my dad and mom who have treated her badly.  My dad and mom didn’t know what to do with her while she grew up in our household because they were old-fashion and they thought that punishing us was the way of handling their children.  They didn’t really know how to discipline us and punished us for everything because I knew that my dad didn’t like his life.  He felt we were a burden to him and he was an asshole while we knew him back when we were little.  My mom was weak-willed and always wanted people to feel pity for her because she’d worked hard all of her life.  So whenever something went on she would spill to her relatives about how bad we were to make people feel sorry for her.  I don’t like my parents for that, but I don’t hold it against them for anything anymore because they have, in a way, changed, but I’m going to say something here.  Anyways, there are people out there way worse than my parents and I see that they have changed.

What I’m going to say is that my family has never supported me in anything.  They’ve always went against me about everything.  It’s been like this for a while and I got the shitty end of things when it comes to my family.  I got off of Facebook just recently because my family was on there and they complained about me posting things.  The things I post about are situations I have gone through to relate to people and I want people to understand themselves because I am relatable.   The things I go through someone has gone through... I believe.  They do not understand and never have.

 I am a very intelligent girl but my family never knew that.  They have never really understood what I am capable of doing because they think I am just there to make their lives the way it is.  I never got the chance to help take care of my family because my family never really supported me or gave me good advice about anything and I worked up to the way I am now, because of my self-disciplinary.

The reason why my family don't support me is because they don't want me to get sick again. I've gotten sick in the past many times and they just want me to relax and chill with myself.  I've done a lot in the past and caused myself to have a mental breakdown due to the stress I put on myself.  That's the reason why they don't support me.  But, I know my limitations and what I am capable of doing and I'm taking things slowly and wisely.  Yes, I can get sick again and need to be careful but also I want to be able to do certain things and hopefully my family is lenient on that and will understand me.
 

Please be supportive of your family and friends and stop saying things like “you’re a low life or bum” because I see it often when families deal with their family members.  My family had always put us down while growing up, hence my problems growing up.  In a way they still think that but it less noticeable with them when it comes to dealing with us.  Maybe my parents understood that they shouldn’t have treated their children like that and be less harsh on us now.

Anyways, that’s all I want to complain about… please love your children and your family members with all of your heart and be there for them through thick and thin.  Please support them in their passions and dreams and allow them to be whom they are, because most of all it feels good (Fanastic) to be yourself.  Why would you stop yourself to be something when truly you are special and unique in every way.

I may never find anyone again...but I am happy.

I’ve been single for a while now since 2013 and the last time I dated was when this last guy didn’t want kids.  He had said in the beginning of the relationship that he could not have kids because he was not financially stable to have a family.  On top of that, I did not have a job as well so he couldn’t rely on me financially even though he had a good, stable job.

The reason why I am okay with not finding someone is because I have had the chance to fall in love and I am very appreciative of my ex.  This ex whom I dated five years ago, we had a really bad relationship and it was an out of control relationship, but I couldn’t help how I felt.  I loved him a lot because I saw through his pain and struggles.

It was pretty sad to know what he’d gone through and like him, I understood because I, too, have gone through a lot.  I may never find anyone, but I am happy with being single because I have had an opportunity to have loved or to fall in love.

Some people may never have the opportunity to experience this kind of love or to find that true love, where they understand everything after this person leaves.  They may even be lucky because this true love of theirs will stay with them until the love between them is over.  This ex actually never left me because he would continue to greet me every year on my birthday until last year when I was able to reach out to him and help him through his life.

I knew this that he was still going through things because to me, men don’t change until something knocks them over and someone helps them realize what they have been doing was wrong.  Men generally do not change until that perfect someone comes into their life and makes them realizes something.  I didn’t mean to point things out about his life and make him feel a certain way about how he was going about life.  The only reason why I did that was to make him look at the details and realize that he wasn’t doing something right.  I wasn’t trying to be a self-righteous and a know-it-all or try to fix him.  I do not want to fix him but my point in reaching out to him was to make him have realization and to think about things through.  He has the right to change himself and no one can really change a man until he decides he wants to change himself.  I told him many times that I do not expect him to understand everything and change himself, just that he takes things into consideration and hopefully one day he will understand and do something about it.

I only did this, went back to him to be his friend and to only help him, while everyone mostly told me to stay away and stop talking to him.  I ignored everyone and did what I had to do was think selflessly and try my best to help him.

I am selfless when it comes to people and I am passionate about people that I have love in my heart even though I don’t have anyone right now in my heart.

This ex of mines allowed me to have love in my heart and it has stayed like that for a while.  He is now my friend even though we aren’t close but I see him as a friend.  The reason why I didn’t listen to people because I had to undo what was done to me because people generally leave me.  I just wanted to break the cycle of hatred and vengeance...that's why I don't do things back to people. All of my exes have left me and I am not going to do what he has done to me because no one deserves to be left behind unless an ex did something horrible to me, of which he never did anything wrong.  He only left because of his insecurities and him being unhappy with me.  I let him leave because I realize he was unhappy but I am here with him because I want him to be happy. 

I will see him get married and have kids because I am selfless and I want the best for him.  I am like that, because I want the best for everyone.

Anyways, because I understand love and am not lonely I am not certain if I will find anyone because I have gotten away from feeling lonely and my life is filled with love.  I do not feel lonely.  I used to have that lonely feeling in the past but I have completed myself in the last few years.

So, if you want something in your life, please complete your life and get to be a “whole” because if someone chooses to leave, you will still have happiness in your life since you have gotten away from wanting and needing things when you have completed yourself.

Anyways, this is me, telling you that I do not need to find anyone in my life.  I am good for now.  If it takes ‘til I’m 60 years old to find someone, then I will have that chance later, but I am happy just with myself.

Please have love in your heart and work on yourself where you feel complete…

Wrap blouse with zip up leather pencil skirt...You know I don't really like animal prints that much but this outfit looks real nice on because it looks feminine.  Anything that is 'wrap' is to me nice as long as it looks feminine.  I paired it with black pointy shoes.  You should probably wear this to a night out or to work.  

It's still winter right??? so this sweater dress would be nice to wear since it has been raining a lot in California.  The pink color really stands out with the pink belt, if anything you can wear something like this on /Valentine's with the subtle pink colors.

You know I'm contemplating on wearing this summer dress for a wedding, an outdoor wedding.  It would be nice to wear because it's fit on top and flares out at the bottom like a sundress of which is exactly what it is, a sundress.  It would also be nice to wear on a sunny day in the spring or summer.

Another orange item in my closet.  I love to pair it up with the color blue and I do like to pair the color, orange, with purple and red as well, of which the colors of this scarf has.  I haven't worn the J. Crew shorts but I thought it went nicely with the whole outfit including the scarf as well as my Ralph Lauren Polo boat shoes that I have had in my closet for awhile.

Maximalism has taken on strides on the runway and may make it to the streets, if people are willing to mix and match colors, patterns while balancing with shapes and lines.  The colors are a splash of everything and shapes and lines are exaggerated.  Maybe this is consider minimal maximalism fashion because the shapes and lines aren't really exaggerated but is toned down, and the colors really stand out and play out with the eyes.  It was really fun to mix and match and play with colors and patterns, I had so much fun playing around with this one.

Another orange dress againnn...I love some color in my life so I picked this dress to be in today's post.  I would definitely keep things simple like wear stud earrings and no other jewelry, keep my makeup looking natural with a red lip.  Everytime I wear something bold like this as in color bold, I keep it simple and don't add much to it.  Please play with color and see if you like the color orange on you.  I really like all colors on me; I usually stick with a standout piece and balance everything around my body.

Minimalism or Maximalism fashion?

Can I see myself as a Maximalist when it comes to fashion since the fashion trend this year is Maximalism?

You know I actually like the bold, fun patterns but for me I try to keep things simple.  I am trying to be a minimalist throughout every aspect of my life. I do like color but I like to mix in simple gestures to my style.  If you can mix in patterns with how you see something and know how to balance patterns and cool geometric or asymmetric lines within your style, then you are a fashionista.

I am seeing more geometric lines and shapes as well as asymmetry where the one shoulder is going back in style and also puffy ruffles around the shoulders, waists and cuffs of sleeves.

It is indeed fun to see where fashion is going, but happens the countertrend would be minimalism fashion since Maximalism is in style for this year.

Stores will indeed fill in more of these styles and you would be able to mix your clothing around.

I do want to keep being simplistic in my style and balancing shapes, lines and color.

I do not know if I would take on maximalism, in a way you can mix these two trends up.

You could be a minimal maximalist, being subtle with color but big on shapes and lines.

Anyways, this new coming spring 2017 has all the rage about maximalism.  If you are willing to get rid of your old wardrobe and get some new clothing items in, please go to your nearest department stores to see if you can materialize on the new trend.

I am a little sad that fashion has gone into this new direction or trend, because I really like the minimalism fashion. 

My view on the world is that we should try to be all minimalists, because we are completely overconsuming on everything and I don’t even know if the world can handle this.  Perhaps we are so far down the path of overconsuming that fashion has taken a route of extremes, because what maximalism is, is that it’s about extremes.  It’s also about extremes views as well…which the nation is going into at this moment.  People are being extreme about what they are feeling and want for the nation and the world.  I do have views and I do not stay in the middle when it comes to politics because I believe my views are based on what we can do together as a whole, giving everyone the chance to live a better life mentally, physically or emotionally.  You can take on this maximalism fashion and ignore what’s going on in this world, or take on minimalism in every aspect of your life and try to do what you need for yourself and do something to keep your life from depending on certain things.  I am going to keep trying to be a minimalist because I feel simplicity is beautiful.  This  maximalism fashion really reminds me of Hunger Games of the opposite worlds we live in.

I like to keep things simple because you don’t want to be standing out too much when everything is nice and basic.  I don’t really see myself wearing big chandelier earrings with some bold fashionable, colorful outfit.  But who knows if I can try on something that has these bold colors and it’s really nice on, I might buy myself into the trend.  

Why you should invest in people...

I actually see a lot of people being kind to dogs and cats or other animals, but they can’t be kind to someone who is homeless or is going through a lot.  Some people don’t even have sympathy or empathy for others and I get that, because people can do a lot of harm to one another.  Dogs and cats aren’t that evil compared to a human being while a human being is capable of killing or hurting someone or people.  I get that, because I see people turning towards taking in many strays as much as possible while they neglect to associate with people.  I get that because I can see why they would turn towards something who would love them unconditionally while people take more work to get them to love you back.

When you see an animal that has lost a leg, you go “AWWW…let me help.” But when you see a human being in a wheel chair, you go “Ew…how pathetic.”  Some people don’t actually think this, but I often see this kind of treatment towards the disable or handicap.    A dog with a tiny wheel that replaces it lost leg is cute but a person in a wheelchair is disgusting.  I see this kind of attitude a lot from people and in a way don’t get why people see others like this.

I am pretty saddened by why people are like this, and I feel that others who are going through a lot should get the attention they need and get lots of help from people.  They are your kind as well and to actually get people to love you back is amazing because it takes a lot of work to actually have someone love you back.  If you have invested in people than you are amazing because people have the capacity to do a lot with themselves, paying forward for others when you take time to help someone.

I do want to pay forward and I have… by volunteering.  It’s been two weeks since I volunteered and I feel amazing when I do it.  I feel that I am doing a lot when all I do is put food on a plate and pass it to the next person down the assembly line when it’s time for the homeless to eat.  the homeless’ faces light up and they feel so blessed when people come out to help them.  Without these volunteers like me, they wouldn’t have food ready for them when they come in to eat. 

The reason why I treat everyone nicely is because I used to go through a lot when I was younger and the people who are going through a lot need people to be a positive impact in their lives.  I’ve had people reach out to me and became an positive impact on my life and I am just doing what good came out of people reaching out to me. 

You should be nice to everyone because one day you might end up going through something like what people go through every day.  I never felt like I was invincible but things have happened and I am here to say that someone like me whom everyone thinks have had a good life has actually gone through situations that made me humble.

I am now humble because of the things I go through and it makes me a better person.  When you have understood life, you have understood people, because with understanding life, you need to understand people since they are just like you.  If you are to understand your life, your life is like a mirror to people and if you are to relate to people you need to go through the ups and downs of life because people go through situations all the time. 

So please be understanding and nice to people, because they are just like you and if you have had a good life, maybe one day you would have the chance to experience what others go through.  I said “Chance” because it’s a privilege to have understood people by appreciating what you go through because that’s just how you understand life and others. 

Life is like that..allowing you to experience everything in order to understand life. 

I am like this because I am appreciative of what I’ve gone through and because of what I’ve gone through I have sympathy and empathy for people since I know what they are going through.

Why you should invest in people is that it feels good to do something for someone because you are able to do things out of selflessness, without regarding someone as somebody that is inferior to you, but going beyond yourself, of what you need and what you want by helping someone in need.  Gradually as time goes when you invest in people, it would be something of need and want, because you are doing something good for your soul, mind and heart.  Anything to do with the mind, soul and heart is good.  

Please be nice to everyone because like you, they deserve kindness and positivity in their life.

I'm starting to love the color, orange, because it looks beautiful on especially if you're looking for some color for spring and summer.  I paired it with a nice jean jacket and navy blue Michael Kors flats that I got for a good, discounted price.  I haven't worn these that much but I do want to be comfortable for spring and summer when it comes around and I would definitely sport this outfit on a sunny day in spring or summer.  I have other orange items in my closet and will show you how to style them.  Orange looks real good with blue and so please find something that is blue in your closet to pair it with the color orange.  Red also looks good with orange but you want to balance orange with something cool so pair an orange item in your closet with blue.

Keeping your wardrobe simple as in with the Minimalism trend...

I would like to keep things simple with my fashion.

I've always done this, try to keep things simple when it comes to fashion.  I do not want to have some over the top or extravagant item paired with my wardrobe picks unless something like that needs to be balanced with something simple.  If you are going to wear some elaborate necklace or pair of earrings make sure you keep things balanced off with your wardrobe.  Like for example, a nice classic black dress that's all black can be pairs with one or the other: elaborate necklace or pair of earrings.  Please keep your makeup simple because that elaborate necklace is the thing that will stand out.

I tend to keep my makeup natural looking and if I had long hair I would probably curl or have a wave going in my hair when I'm wearing something beachy in the summer or when I'm wearing something to go out during the day.  I tend to keep my hair straight when I'm wearing something simple because usually that's how I am. I like to be simplistic when it comes to fashion.

Right now I have a really short hair and it's a pixie cut, so certain outfits do not stand out but I like to wear tailored clothing.  I like tailored dresses that I could to wear to work at the office and then go out with the girls at night by upgrading the night by switching over from flats or small heels (from the office) to high heels and maybe add in a necklace or pair of earrings.

Generally I do not like to wear both necklaces and earrings at the same time, I have one or the other because sometimes it would be too much unless they're a pair of dainty and simple jewelry.

I've been trying to be a minimalist when it comes to fashion and I feel it's great to stick to simple pairings of items within a wardrobe.  I am also trying to be minimalist when it comes to other aspects of my life.  I am trying to get away from wanting a lot and only getting things I need for myself by not over-consuming.

I will also try to mix the same items into other wardrobes to pair up with other things so you can have an idea of how to mix something up.

Fashion is sometime elaborate but I have always kept things simple when it comes to fashion and i love seeing beauty in the simple things.  Minimalism is a trend that you may want to look at if you have time to search online.  Pinterest has many fashion trends that are going for minimalist look.

I would like to keep this simple especially for spring and summer fashion that is for something casual. I do not want to throw in some elaborate necklace to pair up with this outfit so i kept it simple.  Off the shoulder tops are in for spring and summer, they were in for a while but this spring and summer there will be more of these kinds of tops sold in stores.  It's a subtle kind of sexy where you bare your shoulders; it has a little breathing room at the bottom but it looks nice when you are going out to lunch with friends or shopping at the mall when it's hot or warm out to get that nice tan on your shoulders, neck, and chest.