Why I write…
I write because the thoughts flowing in my head out on the
keyboard on this page, allows me to release my thoughts, ideas, and feelings so
I can clear my mind. Mostly what I am
feeling when I write is relief because I tend to think a lot. I only like thinking a lot since I used to be
quiet and I had nothing on my mind.
Completely nothing was on my mind, except when I was doing something
hands on like working with my hands. I
used to work for a huge retail company that took a lot of my energy going up
and down a ladder and putting medium to large bolts of fabrics on shelves. I actually at one point in my life lost 45 lbs.;
I was at 150 lbs. and worked my ass off until I was 105 lbs. It was within a six months period, working
hard while working fast. Anyways, I will
go into details one day, but I was really quiet at one time in my life, which
was from 2011 to 2013. Before that I had
spent most of my life dwelling within my own misery, being depressed because I
had hit rock bottom the second time around.
I will talk more into detail about the first time another time, but I
was moping around at the end of 2008 all the way to 2010.
Why do I want to write?
Well, I’m passionate about people and I want people to have
that feeling towards another human being.
Dogs love you right back generally but if a stranger could love you just
like that, it takes a lot to get loved by another. Sometimes all you have to do one thing, it
burns and it sparks the fire of compassion and love for someone, because that
one person did something kind or out-of-the-ordinary. I’m telling you that you ought to change and
do something different like volunteering for a nonprofit agency for example,
homeless shelters and animal shelters.
Or even that, volunteer for battered women and children. There are other agencies out there that may
suit you as a volunteer. If you don’t have the time, please donate as much as
you can or little by little to these non-profit agencies. I honestly don’t have money but when I have
money I will pay forward. All of what I’ve
done for my life is for my family, but mostly when it comes to writing it is
for the people. Fashion, of which, is my
major is mostly with styling, which is making people beautiful. I even wanted to help the underprivileged find
something for them so they can get their next job interview. Starting next week, I will be doing some
volunteer work. I’m not going to say where, because I don’t want people
flocking to where I am but please do your research and find a place where you
feel comfortable volunteering and continue volunteering if you can.
I am passionate about people mostly, is why I want to
write. I love people. I used to hate being around people when I was
in my early twenties until mid-twenties.
I’ll tell you more about that later.
Anyways, I’ve had some positive impacts in my life due to some
people. There was only a few who made a
positive impact, but because they reached out to me, I am reaching out to
people. Maybe they were only a few, but
these people saved me from falling.
P.S. Even after I’ve
told you that you should do something different or out-of-the-ordinary, it
means “you” yourself not being out of the ordinary, but doing something out-of-the-ordinary. If the task is out-of-the-ordinary, it should
not make the person out-of-ordinary because what is out-of-the-ordinary? I do not consider myself out-of-the-ordinary—I
am a simple person. The things I do are
out-of-the-ordinary because the most beautiful or meaningful things in this
world are simple. I consider myself to
be simple because I do not want to be out-of-the-ordinary. Being out-of-the-ordinary is exhausting
because you constantly have to upgrade and “one up” yourself every time,
because people’s minds do get bored. And if
you are constantly being out-of-the-ordinary, you are constantly putting more higher
expectations on yourself. So just be
simple, people…simple people doing extraordinary things… Good night.
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